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Post by Brandybuck on Nov 2, 2005 1:00:12 GMT -5
LOL! What machine doesn't do that sweetie? Machines are not perfect in any way. I think every time I go on my other sites, someone is complaining about their computer..it does not matter if they have dial up, high speed, systems, laptops, whatever...it seems that all computers share a universal talent for trouble.
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Post by Shadow on Nov 2, 2005 19:33:32 GMT -5
You know what... forget it. It's not worth stressing over. Beating myself up over stuff I can't control. People don't care.. I can't make them. they want to be stupid... can't help that one either. I'm not going to put myself through he** to please other people anymore. I'm done with this crap. Love you guys.
-Stitch
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Post by kirsty on Nov 11, 2005 11:12:30 GMT -5
Ahh the good o'le rant thread... Lets see... it started at 6:30 this morning because of the night guy at my work who cant seem to get it through his head that I only wanted the wake up call Once.. I said it several time that it was a one time only thing but he keeps (blanking) calling me at 6:30 am. Then I ended up waiting for my bus for 25 minutes because its a statutory holiday and was on a different time schedule than normal. Then when I got to work I wanted to talk to him about some things. I spoke very friendly and tactfully but he took it totally the wrong way and it ended in a huge argument. ARRRGGGG and it wasn't evern 9 am yet!!!! I am so tense right now my muscles are sore. *breaths*
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Post by miezekatze on Nov 11, 2005 20:36:13 GMT -5
GRR the one person i truely care about needs me more than ever and I can't get to her!!! I may have a fix to the problem but who knows everything screws up that I take the time to plan out! all things high and mighty forbid anyone or anything that associates with me to have an at least decent life! I can't stand it! I'm tense and sore and achy and b****y and just GRRRR that is all i can say! just Grrrrr.....I give up! I can't even put into word how just ticked off i am! I want My baby here...now! and she could be in a week....if she says yes to my mom's offer! I hope she does! it'll make life a lil' easier on both of us. And now that i've said that i just jinxed it cause that's my freaking luck! now she'll either say no/she can't or something will go terribly wrong when she gets here(if she says yes)! Forget it...Screw all of This Crap...I give up! Peace-Out!
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Post by Shadow on Nov 14, 2005 12:31:00 GMT -5
Yes baby I need you but you're not super and you can't be everywhere at once.
Ok baby... you don't have "certain people" throwing you into the freaking wall, jumping in your face, then hitting you. You want to know what happened that night I called you? Not really because I know you, you'd be here in no time. I will tell you in due time. I love you baby. Nothing will change that. I love you.
-Stitch
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Post by miezekatze on Nov 14, 2005 15:53:00 GMT -5
You want to know what happened that night I called you? Not really because I know you, you'd be here in no time. Yeah you know me and I know certain ppl i've made specific and detailed plans for but i won't go through with those plans bc of you...they are your "certain ppl" not mine....but if given the word...heck yea i'd be there. I'd be there with 12inch sharp objects, bleach, salt, a branding iron, and Cl gas. I'd come prepared...but anyways I love you and knowing that "ppl" hurt you just pisses me the "F" off....i want you safe and here with me where no one can hurt you....as you've said...you need to think about it...and as i've said...just let me know something! I love you babygirl....
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Post by miezekatze on Nov 14, 2005 21:38:34 GMT -5
GRRR...ok that's it! I have been accused of cheating now...It's being said that I cheated on my beautiful Blutengel with my bestfriend! 1. I love heather too much to do that, 2. Mindy is straight, and 3. we had our own seperate blankets...not even any skin to skin contact! Oh yea, that's cheating! <~~(sarcasm) *snarls* and who wants to know who accused me of this?!?!?!?! My very own mother! What the Heck! I must be just some "lesbian sexadict" in her eyes now...i don't understand her! One minutes she's happy and it's like we're bestfriends then the next it's like she hates me with a passion! She's the same way toward heather too. On minute she loves her to death and will do anything to help her then the next she's trying to get me to either leave her or say something about our relationship....I dunno what to do....I can't even bring my self to do my home work anymore! Besides I don't need a highschool deploma or GED for my profession! So "F" school and every self-center b****, D***, and Hairy that go to that God Forsaken School! Only ppl in life i need @ this point is Heather, Mindy, Sarah, and Cippy! If things go as planned we'll have our own place by the time heather gets here this summer... we could stay there now if we want to but just like heather I'm not ready to leave yet...Another thing about school...we have gotten a bomb threat for Nov. 16 and we still got school...ect....and actually they dunno if it's bomb or not...all the note said was, "November 16 the school dies" It doesn't specify anything there...huh? No, It Doesn't! Ya know what I'm leaving it all at this! There's more but forget it! It's not worth my time....or yours to read this crap!
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Post by Shadow on Nov 15, 2005 12:27:06 GMT -5
Baby... I love you and trust you more than my heart can take. You'd tell me if anything ever happened. (the justin incident to be specific) I trust you babylove. Only death can tear us apart and even then, I'll fight it with everything I have. Second off... I know Sweet-n-low wouldn't do that to me. I'd do anything to be your guinepig right now. lol. I miss being jumped on out of the blue with something so comforting. I'll calm you down. Just let me get my sanity back and I'll be there. AP is a wonderful thing in a long distance relationship. I'll see what I can do tonight, ok baby? I love you
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Post by miezekatze on Nov 15, 2005 14:36:00 GMT -5
Thankyou babygirl...it's just it's my mom who accused me that got me so upset...even Cassandra was like, "WHAT!! You love her and Mindy isn't like that...we know that from that one night before you left this summer, remember?" I told her yea and snickered under my breath remembering what mindy told me about that night from her perspective. (i'll tell you about that later) you'll get a laugh out of it! I came home early today...cause i'm sick... and ppl are still freaking over the "Nov. 16" thing....i just say if they do and i get hit...they better kill me....*clears throat* anyways...I love you babygirl! see ya tonight or well feel ya (maybe)..he he he
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Post by Shadow on Nov 24, 2005 0:50:49 GMT -5
Ok right now I'm at the point that I'm refusing to accept my past. Refusing to accept and I dern sure not going to go back to it. The mood swings are getting me in trouble again. Popping off at the wrong people. Happy go lucky one minute, upset the next. I'm not going back to the "mental facility" or whatever the heck they want to call it. It didn't help the first time what makes the counselors think it will help this time??? See, i hate it when people you don't know try to be your friend saying they know what you're going through, they're only here to help. Yeah, only here to help me with a cop standing behind you. I'm not an aggressive person unless provoked. So I'm going through a few things, yeah, it's taking a while to grasp, but I haven't gone off. They think I was mad when I walked out of the room to keep from hitting someone, at least I walked out. Good night everyone.
-Stitch
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Post by twilight on Nov 29, 2005 20:00:19 GMT -5
I have been so stressed out recently. It is even worse because I can't really talk about what's causing my stress with anyone, because it is really personal and people don't seem to understand. I am not a very emotional person. I don't get emotionally attached to people. I can go days without talking to another human being. I could probably go longer but I've never tried it. It's not that I hate people, I don't even really consider myself antisocial. I just feel like I don't need people all that much. Well, I have a boyfriend now. A meddling, matchmaker "friend" of ours decided to push the two of us together. I don't think he really understood what he was doing. I like this guy, but I can not care about him like he cares about me. I understand friendship, and I understand lust, but I don't get the emotional connection, the whole "relationship thing." And the thing is, I don't really care. I don't want to change my views, I was living just fine with them before. So for the past two weeks I have been feeling absoloutly wretched and depressed and totally, totally confused. I do NOT want to be in a relationship right now. And I CERTAINLY do NOT want to be in a monogamous one. But I can't do anything about this because this guy is my friend and we also have many mutual friends; so it would make things a bit awkward and might cost me some friendships if I mess up this relationship. but I am so MISERABLE. I don't know if this all makes sense, but hey, this is a rant thread. When are rants ever cohesive?
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Post by Laurasia on Nov 30, 2005 15:41:51 GMT -5
Hi Twilight. Honey, I have to say that it sounds as though you really need to break this thing off. Being in a relationship shouldn't make you miserable, you seem to undersatand that fact perfectly well. Just because they two of you decide to break things off doesn't mean that you can no longer be friends, or have mutual friends. Just decide to remain friends. It's not as sticky as it may seem. Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by Brandybuck on Dec 2, 2005 2:26:51 GMT -5
I agree with Laurasia aelish. First of all, the relationship in question is between you and the other person you are seeing. It is totally in your right to break this off immediately..especially if you feel nothing for him. If your friends are in fact friends, they will understand and not hold any unnecessary grudges. It is not their relationship after all, it is yours.
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Post by twilight on Dec 2, 2005 17:27:37 GMT -5
Thanks for the advice guys! The thing is, I know that I have to break it off eventually, and that's another reason why I feel bad- like I'm leading him on or something. But there's this dance that I agreed to go to with him, and I really can't back out of that since he's already bought the $25 tickets and it's all planned and everything. And that's next week, so I can't really do anything before then. Well, I suppose I could, but I don't think I will. I keep thinking maybe this will work out, maybe I can crush my instincts that are telling me to drop this relationship now, because sometimes it is good to change and live life differently. But when I do this, I feel like Iam crushing some basic foundation of my character. Another problem is that I am so stressed out that I cannot write. I am always thinking about this and it is like a HUGE case of writers block. I think my writing is more important that almost anything else. So even if it were just that, I would have to break this up eventually. Why does it have to be so complicated?
~Aelish
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Post by Brandybuck on Dec 2, 2005 18:18:19 GMT -5
*smiles* There is absolutely nothing wrong with going with him to a dance..especially if he already bought the tickets. You could tell him beforehand that you would like to just go as friends and see how that goes over.
However, the bottom line is..this relationship is not good for you. It is giving you writers block now..but the problem will only spiral even further out of control. You need to nip it in the bud now before he gets more into this relationship. The sooner that you confide in him the better.
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