Post by Brandybuck on Sept 25, 2005 18:37:23 GMT -5
I will try to relate here all that I can think of (in so far as I have thus far experienced) on a life as a psi-vampire donor.
At first I was a very confused individual...I thought that I was a psychic vampire. Let me explain. When I was younger, I was more apt to be afraid of thunderstorms than most children. I know..all of us were scared of them, right? However, I wasn't afraid of the thunder. You see I thought the lightning was going to come into my window and strike me. Whenever there was an electrical storm in tha area, all of the hair on my body would stand up. I felt like a weather vane just waiting to be hit. That is very terrifying as a child when you have no clue what is going on. Now, being a 27 year old adult, I have learned how to "deal with my energy levels" so that storms usually do not affect me that severly.
I first began to realize that I had a higher energy level than others when I started hanging around with the wrong people. Very negative people who feed off of nothing more than negativity. I began to feel drained after associating with these people. But , unlike my friends, I seemed to bounce back faster from these negative encounters. It is like I could "replenish myself" on energy. It wasn't until I became friends with Laurasia that I began to understand what I was. Whereas psychic vampires feed off of electrical appliances, etc.., I tend to feed those needs from the extra store of energy I seem to possess.
There is nothing supernatural about being a donor. From what I have been able to understand of my condition, I have a higher energy aura than most people. I think that automatically makes me an empathetic because I feel things very, very strongly. It is very easy for me to absorb energy. Over the past few years, since I have realized what I am, I try to release the energy in spurts. I am lucky enough to have a psi on hand to donate to. However, when I need to get rid of it in other fashions, I usually do grounding exercises or meditation to stabilize. You see, if I let it build up, and build up, I get similar effects that a psi vampire gets. I get emotional symptoms such as depression, anxiety, or mood swings. Or, I get physical symptoms such as weakness, nausea, and fatigue. It haa gotten so bad in the past, that I actually thought I was in a bad bout of the flu..when really I had too much energy in my body.
I am open to questions, and if I can explain them I will. Just like all psi's, all donors experience things differently. I will help wherever I can.
At first I was a very confused individual...I thought that I was a psychic vampire. Let me explain. When I was younger, I was more apt to be afraid of thunderstorms than most children. I know..all of us were scared of them, right? However, I wasn't afraid of the thunder. You see I thought the lightning was going to come into my window and strike me. Whenever there was an electrical storm in tha area, all of the hair on my body would stand up. I felt like a weather vane just waiting to be hit. That is very terrifying as a child when you have no clue what is going on. Now, being a 27 year old adult, I have learned how to "deal with my energy levels" so that storms usually do not affect me that severly.
I first began to realize that I had a higher energy level than others when I started hanging around with the wrong people. Very negative people who feed off of nothing more than negativity. I began to feel drained after associating with these people. But , unlike my friends, I seemed to bounce back faster from these negative encounters. It is like I could "replenish myself" on energy. It wasn't until I became friends with Laurasia that I began to understand what I was. Whereas psychic vampires feed off of electrical appliances, etc.., I tend to feed those needs from the extra store of energy I seem to possess.
There is nothing supernatural about being a donor. From what I have been able to understand of my condition, I have a higher energy aura than most people. I think that automatically makes me an empathetic because I feel things very, very strongly. It is very easy for me to absorb energy. Over the past few years, since I have realized what I am, I try to release the energy in spurts. I am lucky enough to have a psi on hand to donate to. However, when I need to get rid of it in other fashions, I usually do grounding exercises or meditation to stabilize. You see, if I let it build up, and build up, I get similar effects that a psi vampire gets. I get emotional symptoms such as depression, anxiety, or mood swings. Or, I get physical symptoms such as weakness, nausea, and fatigue. It haa gotten so bad in the past, that I actually thought I was in a bad bout of the flu..when really I had too much energy in my body.
I am open to questions, and if I can explain them I will. Just like all psi's, all donors experience things differently. I will help wherever I can.