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Post by Shadow on Apr 16, 2007 23:11:06 GMT -5
I trusted her with everything
I gave her my life
She was my only reason to sing
My babygirl... my wife
But she didn't care enough
Broke my heart in two
Threw me down and I couldn't get back up
"I love you but I can't keep hurting you"
Now slowly I carry on each day
Forcing myself to move on
But I have nothing left to say
Nothing left of my own
She took my heart and soul
Left me alone with eveything to hide
Now, finding myself isn't my main goal
But rather picking up my pieces and fixing what she broke inside.....
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Post by Rowan on May 14, 2007 10:51:34 GMT -5
Aw , so sad .
Grief pouring out in every line .
It will get better in time .
Hope the writing helps you .
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Post by Shadow on May 19, 2007 0:17:37 GMT -5
No need to start a new thread when it's all about the same thing, so here we go again.
We had everything all planned out
We'd be together in the end without a doubt
Well... you shot that to s**t now didn't you?
"Once again here I am alone and feeling blue"
You should have though about that before now!
I love you, I hate you, I just don't know how....
Screw that babes, I'm tired of you ******* with my heart
Oh but "nothing will ever tear us apart"
You reached out and got an empty hand
I swear, I just couldn't make you understand
I was doing it for you, for us later on
I guess I was too late cuz when I reached back you were gone
For two months straight I kept reaching for you
So much for a love so true....
I ignored the first two times
Never again cuz you just twist my rhymes
"Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me"
Yeah shame on me for letting you use distance as a crutch
Now I see, you never really needed me that much
If so then d**m you had me fooled!
Seems to me like you didn't have a problem sleeping around
Or creeping around with other "friends"
But I still can't shut you out
The little flickering flame in my shadow of doubt
It's ok.... I didn't need your stress anyways
Just have to keep my head up and remember "I've seen better days"
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Post by Laurasia on May 20, 2007 14:03:14 GMT -5
I like that last one a lot. Very clear, to the point, & no-holds-barred. I bet that one felt good to get written down.  |
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Post by Shadow on May 20, 2007 22:04:21 GMT -5
Like you wouldn't believe! But it never went on paper, I just started typing. There will be more cuz she keeps calling and sending me emails... I'm hoping she'll get the point to come read these and see. It just comes and goes. I beat myself up for not being there then hate her and all the people there I trusted that lied to me. So yeah, there'll be more here before too long. |
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Post by Laurasia on May 21, 2007 8:46:02 GMT -5
That's why there is caller ID & free email accounts, sweety. |
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Post by Shadow on Jul 26, 2007 22:56:54 GMT -5
This one really doesn't have any specific pattern. The title explains it, me picking up my pieces. I'm done with her. No more answering the phone, no more texts, no more emails. No more late night calls when he's not there to comfort her. I'm sorry but after the dream I had last night, this is long overdue. I can't say the dream was the best because in the end I killed myself. Yeah talk about waking up in a cold sweat. But with all honesty, she's broken my life down into an outright living he** for the past 4 months without even trying. Just the though of someone so heartless to do what she did tore me apart. Everything is boxed up now... every picture, letter... everything. All the pictures in my phone, gone. It's just amazing how you can do so much for someone and they don't even care....  No more sitting at home hoping she'll call and tell me it was all just a joke, no more thinking she was the best I could do, no more. There just aren't enough words that I could say to thank the people who helped me through it. One also gave me more than I bargined for. She gave me so much more confidence and will-power, and for the first time in a long time, made me see that I was more than just some puppet. I've finally stepped forward again, only this time there's no looking back. |
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Post by Rowan on Aug 6, 2007 20:08:06 GMT -5
Its awful to allow someone to have that much control over your state of mind Hon.
Its good to see the defiance in your writing .
And the fighting spirit.
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Post by Laurasia on Aug 7, 2007 13:58:41 GMT -5
Yes, I have to say that I am very glad to read the new resolve in your words as well, love. ~hugs~ You are so much better than her & deserve a world more than that kind of disrespect & disregard! Cheers to the new you.
Sincerely,
Laurasia
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Post by Shadow on Aug 7, 2007 14:27:33 GMT -5
Well, I told you guys I had to change a lot before I could get over it, even if it meant changing myself, so I did. Now to find a new display name. Open to suggestions |
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Post by Laurasia on Aug 9, 2007 8:55:09 GMT -5
With everything that you've gone through? How about.....Titanium.  |
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Post by Shadow on Aug 9, 2007 10:10:00 GMT -5
lol I... think I'll pass on that one. ;D You get an E for effort. |
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Post by Laurasia on Aug 10, 2007 8:52:17 GMT -5
Fine then, be that way! Seriously though, it should be something that comes from your heart sweety. I don't think anyone could find a moniker that truly reflects your heart besides yourself. |
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Post by Shadow on Aug 10, 2007 11:30:40 GMT -5
*sigh* That might take a while. I guess for the time I'll go back to Stitch
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Post by Rowan on Aug 11, 2007 13:59:01 GMT -5
Titanium LOL.
It sounds like a wrestler superhero:)
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No more sitting at home hoping she'll call and tell me it was all just a joke, no more thinking she was the best I could do, no more. There just aren't enough words that I could say to thank the people who helped me through it. One also gave me more than I bargined for. She gave me so much more confidence and will-power, and for the first time in a long time, made me see that I was more than just some puppet. I've finally stepped forward again, only this time there's no looking back.