Ramblings of an insane mind

[Shadow]

How do you deal when everything you know is wrong?
What keeps a person from killing himself to please the world?
From ripping his heart out and throwing it away as others have?
Nothing honestly, nothing but self will...
A young rebel caught in the battle of life, love, and passion
Nothing seems to make the pain stop
One thing after another, never getting a break
Nothing ever eases up, never will to my life drops
It's enough to drive one to doing unthinkable things
Dead to the world and no one would care

Always stuck in a life of hate, always forced to bear
The life of his own, on his own
No one listens anymore...
It's all a big freakin mind game isn't it?
Isn't that what you wanted?
To slowly drive me insane?
Congratulations! You did it!
Now the blood's left on your hands...
Who's the one to blame.....

[Shadow]

Lost to the world or just to society?
What are they doing to me?
They tell me I"m nothing, I'm not worth it
They control my every move, I can't defeat it
Every bit of good stripped from my mind
They tell me what I'm searching for, I'll never find
They've made me do things to everyone around me
The cuts all over, they run so deep
I never feel them, none of them...
Lost in their ocean, to live I swim
Faster and faster I go to get away
But my body's still their game and they always play...
Tossing my life from one extreme to the other
Happy, pissed, loved, hated, fighting doesn't matter
They will always have control
Tearing my life, ripping at my soul
The medication doesn't help, they laugh at it
It doesn't phase them, they turn and use it
I'll never be sane
Thrown into an eternal abyss of pain
They're controling even more now
I'm still standing, but how?


I would finish typing what i wrote on the paper, but I'm saving myself from getting fussed at. Sorry

[Rowan]

Nice writing brezo.
Theres a lot of emotion pouring out here.

[Shadow]

There's just been so much running through my head and this is the best way I know to deal with it. Even though I wrote that one a while ago, it still fits what I'm in.