My Saving Grace

[miezekatze]

Now not my friends
Not my father
But a close relative
A beloved aunt

I sit and watch in silence
I watch as she withers away
Her heart grows weaker
Weaker and weaker with every beat

As I watch from the shadows
I see all the people I love dying
One by one they fade away
They fade into the cruel, relentless night.

I know I'm not going through this alone
I see it happening to others
It's happening all around me
Still I feel I'm on my own

I can't take it
At times I feel I can't go on
I want to leave
I want to just run away

I need my baby
I need to feel her arms around me tight,
To look into her eyes and feel her kiss,
I need to hear her say, "It'll all be ok..."

Someone please save me
Before I do something stupid
Something that would kill my mother
And break my lover's heart

I love my friends
I love my family
Most of all I love my babygirl
She saves me time and time again

I hate humanity
I hate life
I hate this world
And I hate myself

But I will go on to live
To pleague this pathetic planet
Not for me but for you
For you I live, my baby

What do ya know?!?!
D***, Babygirl, you just saved me again
And you don't even know it...
I love you!

...I shed more than tears for the one I love...

[Shadow]

... and you know if you ever do I'll be right behind you. Baby, I'm in the same boat you are. Not seeing you every day, not hearing your voice every night, not... anything. I know what you're feeling baby, I know it's hard to loose someone. Just give it time. And I know you don't want to hear that right now. Just give it until after Christmas, maybe even before. I'll find a way to get to you. I love you sweetie.

-Stitch

[Brandybuck]

Very heartfelt britt..it reminds me strongly of the way I used to write when I also felt such feelings of separation melancholy. I know that it is hard to share the bonds of love over miles, but that your relationship can survive such a trial proves the strength of your love for one another.

[miezekatze]

Stitch,
Yes, Baby i know you'd be right behind me...as i've said knowing this saves me anytime it crosses my mind...hopefully you realize i'm the same way! I don't want you to so much as hurt yourself or i'll do the same thing only 3 times worse and make you watch me do it! I swear Babygirl....where would we be with out eachother?

Brandybuck,
Hey! I'm glad you understand...at least someone besides me and CK know what it's like. Most ppl i know don't get it or realize how hard it is. :)but at least we're not alone!....if we can make it work while we're apart then we'll be even better off once we're together again. I just really, really, really miss seeing her every day and being in her arms every night, getting to look into her beautiful eyes and be able to say I love you face to face....sorry about getting mushy but i just really miss my baby.

[Brandybuck]

sorry about getting mushy but i just really miss my baby.

It is ok..I tend to get a little mushy myself..*wink* When one loves someone so much, sometimes it cannot be helped.

[Shadow]

What is it about my eyes you love so freakin much? Sorry, I still don't know. And yeah I know you'd make me watch you. You've told me a thousand times. It is good to know that someone knows where you're coming from. I wonder who Brandybuck is talking about Still think she should open up completely jsut once and see what she can come up with. Without you.. I'd be gone. 6 feet under right beside my uncle (Scott). Oh and um.. baby.. they don't know me by CK, and I'm about to just drop that name, considering where I got it (just about out of it all, have to talk to Nickoli again... great...). Love you.

[miezekatze]

Baby it's not just your eyes...it's you. All of you! Everything about you! I love you soooooo much! I can't stand not talking to you! but hopefully soon i'll see you! bye bye my pretty baby!

[Laurasia]

Guys...enough chatting. Take it to your PM boxes.

Sincerely,
Laurasia

[Shadow]

Sorry Laurasia.....