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Post by Laurasia on Jun 20, 2005 17:11:05 GMT -5
Hello everyone. Well, I've been having quite a bit of spontaneous flashbacks involving Nazi Germany recently. Basically just flashes of things here & there, but they are rather disturbing at times. I'm going to begin looking into it further, as soon as my schedule calms down a bit. Though these flashes don't seem to be very eager to wait. I've always had an effinity for Nazi Germany. Not that I believe the things that the Third Reich stood for or anything like that, just...a...connectedness. While it has been rather disturbing (& confusing) at times, I've always had it. Perhaps I was one of the many that were forced to act as they did & thusly became detatched emotionally from the entire thing? I'll have to look into it more. Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by boogieman on Sept 19, 2005 20:50:34 GMT -5
Well i might have a lil explanations about these flash back related to my ideas about American idologys and belifes now days. In a way i think that we are acting in a way much like them. i mean we lately have in a way try and force ideas on other countries. when i think we should except them and wrok to becomming allies with them unless they ask for our help, but insted we see a country we dont agree with their ideas and try and force them to belive what we do. well at least our form of government, and as my backing look at the nazis us and most our allies were aginst them trying to force theire ideas on the other people and if they didnt agree they killed them. well now the un and most all of our alies are aginst what we are doing, and if we dont like thier ideas or leader we go to war with them. its just maby my thought way they are comming up. we are becoming like they were. not saying it is the cause but maby a part of why its happing now.
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Post by Laurasia on Sept 20, 2005 13:53:53 GMT -5
Hi Boogieman. I definately understand where you are coming from in regards to comparing then & now. However, I have had these recollections since I was a child. Definately before I was aware of any political climates or other such things. Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by boogieman on Sept 23, 2005 21:05:24 GMT -5
oh ok. well i didnt think i was right but for some reason a lot of stuff about the time line has been comming up lately.
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Post by Laurasia on Jan 6, 2007 14:32:23 GMT -5
Time for an update. The recollections have continued over these past few months & have been a near-constant barrage within the recent past. I've finally decided to stop trying to put it off & actively do work on this lifetime & it has been fairly easy-going for the most part.
I have gathered that I worked in one of the many concentration camps & was a member of the SS. I have recalled my own father dying & the poverty of the times. I have recalled my mother extremely reluctantly sending me to join the Hitler Youth. I have recalled some of my time there & graduating into the the SS. By studying the rank seals for the Reich I have narrowed down some of the possibilities of my own rank within the SS. I was, at the very least, an Officer. I have recalled some of my work within the camp. I have not remembered my death...yet.
One rather strange occurance is remembering the fact that I was also a vampire during that lifetime....only I was a Sanguinarian instead of a Psi. The recollections that made me aware of this fact were...disturbing to say the least as I'm sure we can all gather what my energy source was & what my ethics on feeding were.
The recollections from this lifetime are, at the very least, a daily thing for me at this point in time. So I will continue to research it more.
Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by Laurasia on Jan 15, 2007 13:43:41 GMT -5
Okay, another update.....
I have had another recollection of being at a rally where Hitler was speaking. I was older, I believe in my early 20s. Everyone was standing in ranks & were in dress uniforms. I remember the Fuhrer as being a very forward & energetic speaker. We were all enraptured, throwing up our arms in salute & responding to him in unison when appropriate.
I recall my own uniform as being the easily recognizable black with a red swastika arm band of the SS, meaning that I had already graduated from the Hitler Youth at that point.
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As I mentioned before, I recall working in at least one of the camps. There are 3 that I seem particularly drawn to though....Dachau, Buchenwald, & Sachsenhausen - all found within Germany itself.
I have also been studying the various braches of the SS to try & narrow down at least which one I worked within. The Waffen-SS seems the least likely - as I have had no recollections nor pull towards the actual war-front. I did make a very strong hit once I began reseaching the Totenkompfverbande (SS-T), or "Death's Head" Division, of the SS. These were the men that worked as guards within the camps. Incidently, the first unit of the SS-T was dispatched to work at Dachau, with the next few being sent to Buchenwald & Sachsenhausen respectively. This could very much explain my pull towards these particular camps.
Descriptions of the SS-Ts training & manner of thinking, in regards to their approaches towards prisoners, also echo very deeply within me. Again, not to say that I now agree with such thinking/actions. I can simply understand them on a certain level. For example, I was reading how members of the Reich-run police could not understand the harshness/brutality of the prisoners initial treatment upon entering the camps. I knew the reasoning immediately without any doubt in my heart or mind.
All of this is very strange for me, given the way that I think & conduct myself in this lifetime. Too be completely against ideology such as the Nazis, yet understand the reasoning behind it at the same time. Needless to say, it can be unsettling at times. Especially when I do have recollections about my own enthusiastic work within such a system. It seems odd to think that I share the same soul as this person that I was less than a century ago.
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Post by Brandybuck on Jan 16, 2007 15:07:39 GMT -5
Thank you very much for the update Laur. I know that you have been working hard on this one. You also know how my progression has come along. It seems that we always meet up in the same lifetimes, eh? At this point I feel that I do not really have enough information on Anna to post it here. You know you were a guy...it was better documented..LOL!
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Post by Laurasia on Jan 17, 2007 12:06:11 GMT -5
LMAO! Yeah the items regarding the guys were better documented, so that does help quite a bit.
Now for another update....Through use of a wardrobe reverie I was finally able to see the left lapel of my uniform. It had 3 pipets & bars underneath. I was, unfortunately, unable to see exactly how many bars there were. This has allowed me to narrow down my possible ranks significantly though. I was either an Obersturmfuhrer or a Hauptstrumfurhrer, at least while I had this uniform that is. Needless to say I at least had lower-ranking ones, as I wouldn't have graduated into that level. This is the uniform that has been standing out for me however.
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Post by Rowan on Jan 18, 2007 11:48:22 GMT -5
Thats really interesting Laurasia. Keep us posted .
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Post by Laurasia on Jan 19, 2007 9:45:20 GMT -5
Oh I plan to. I've still been working extensively in this one. At the moment I'm trying to research certain hints/clues to try & get more details.
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Post by Laurasia on Jan 23, 2007 10:00:25 GMT -5
Okay a small update.....
I have discovered that the last rank I held was that of Sturmbannfuhrer, so I don't really understand why the lower ranked uniform stood out so strongly for me. unless I possibly didn't hold the higher rank for very long or simply hadn't opened up to it enough at the time of the wardrobe reverie.
Another discovery is that my name was Johannes. ;D
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Post by Laurasia on Oct 3, 2007 13:24:37 GMT -5
Wow, I haven't updated this one in a while.
Well I think that I may have figured out why the lower ranking uniform was standing out so much for me. It seems that my time serving "on the front" in order to join the Totenkampf Division was spent with an Einsatzgruppe unit. This is probably the time-frame in which I would have worn the lower-ranking uniform.
I also remember being in eastern or mid-Poland at the end of the war due to one of the harshest flashbacks I've ever received. It started harmlessly enough with a good recollection of us marching into a very welcoming & adoring crowd (the Anschluss of Austria is what I am thinking). However the memory shifted very drastically & quickly to one of being in the death camps & getting orders to liquidate everything & move on back towards Berlin as quickly as possible because the Russians were coming. We had already been doing the mass executions for some time at this point, but now it was to be done even faster (which is truly saying something) & with less attention to detail. We were to destroy everything in the camp & then run to camps nearer to home & help them to do the same before moving on.
I was exhausted. Drained in body, mind & soul. The only thing that I thought of was my beautiful Anna & the thought that there was a very good chance that the Russians would catch & kill us before I would ever see her face again. I wanted nothing more than to just up & leave the camp & head back home to my Anna before the Russians could kill me. When it became apparent to superiors that this is exactly what was on my mind I was told that if I tried to run I wouldn't have to worry about the Russians killing me as I would be shot in the head & burnt with the Jews. Knowing that they were not lying to me I stiffened up, hardened myself & started killing in earnest. The only care/thought that I had was the fact that the quicker I got them killed & dealt with the better my chances that I would see my Anna again.
I was outside during one of my powerwalks when I got this recollection, which simply made it all the more frightening. It was quite an effort just to get myself off of the road so I wouldn't get hit if a car drove by. I could see virtually nothing of the world around me while I was having it - I was so deeply immersed in it. And the pain! I was so tore up emotionally that I threw up on the side of the road & simply sobbed like a child. It took about 10 minutes to get myself back into the house, where I just threw myself on my bed & cried as I tried to calm myself & bring my consciousness back to this lifetime. My thinking/emotions just kept going back there. Eventually I calmed down enough to get everything written down for my files. I will tell you I had a migraine that kept me rather docile for the rest of the day though.
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Post by Brandybuck on Oct 4, 2007 11:23:14 GMT -5
Well, the most poignant rememberance that I have of Anna is that she was killed in the fall of Berlin in May 1945. I do not know when the last time was that she saw Johannes, but I think it may have been within the last year(for reasons that I am still looking into).
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Post by hadassah on Oct 9, 2007 23:07:53 GMT -5
How does a person know if they actually lived a past life or that they are just day dreaming about things? Can you find the info in history?
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Post by Laurasia on Oct 10, 2007 11:34:59 GMT -5
Well it leaves little room for doubt when your spontaneous recollections come upon you more like horrendous flashbacks than daydreams. In most cases it is a matter of faith. I have been lucky enough however to have been incarnated within one of the most heavily documented points in history - which has been very helpful to me. I am able to take recollections that I have had & verify them with historical documents regarding the Nazis. Needless to say, with many incarnations this isn't possible. So having that type of verification available to me is a real treat. Oh, & I have also been having more recollections from this lifetime. However, due to their very graphic nature, I won't be posting them on the boards. Suffice it to say that a lot more about Johannes (& his nature) is becoming known to me.
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